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Tracking this journey seems like a smart move, at least while we are still newcomers and there is plenty happening. So here it goes, starting with my initial post in the foyer to set the scene and bring us up to speed. From early December… We picked up the CB6K roughly a year ago as an experiment. I wore it for several days while my fiancé was away on business trips. While it added some spice to our intimacy when she returned, after enduring a week without touching myself, the novelty faded quickly and we mostly tucked the CB into the toy box. Fast forward about a year. Since I work from home, my SO noticed there were numerous household tasks needing attention. To motivate me, I agreed to be locked up again. It didn’t seem like a big deal since I usually have enough self-control to focus on work, but she knows I tend to procrastinate on chores until the end of my list. She felt that locking me in until those projects were finished would give me extra drive. To make it slightly more challenging for me, she announced that while locked up, I had to crossdress. Since I already fall into the sexual fetish side of the crossdressing spectrum, this significantly raised the stakes. Even with my long hair, I am nowhere near passable as female when dressed, so her requirement that I stay dressed even outside the house makes it difficult (and thrilling) for me. (I can wear androgynous clothes or underdress around family, friends, and clients). This was still just a game to me, one I expected to win because her sex drive is high and she would likely want my cock before I started begging to be released. However, the dynamic shifted yesterday when she called from work and told me to spend the afternoon with a rather large butt plug inside me. The stimulation from the plug had me unconsciously rocking in my chair while working, and I found myself wanting release much more often than usual. She made me remove the plug after dinner, and I thought we were finished with it for now. But when she came to bed a few hours later, she was wearing one of her strapons (an old girlfriend model she hadn’t used on me before). She had me get up on my hands and knees; when that position didn’t quite work, we shifted around until they found one suitable for her. She really let loose and eventually achieved more than six orgasms while fucking me. In our eight years together, this had never happened before. I could feel myself squirting as she pounded me, but the whole experience pushed my arousal level up to a point where it doesn’t usually stay;) So I have now been locked up for two weeks, and I realize she has found a way to meet her orgasm needs at least in the short term. It looks like I won’t be getting out of the CB anytime soon, so guess I’ll stick around. Some evenings later.. I woke up in the middle of the night with an erection and severe pain. Getting up to urinate and adjust the CB helped alleviate it. However, it happened again a bit later, and when I patted myself dry, I noticed blood on the toilet paper. The infamous failed sonic weld on the CB6000 had claimed another victim. The CB was easily fixed with crazy glue, but my penis shaft needed a few days to recover. So while I was physically out of the device, I was effectively in chastity for the three days we allowed my cock to heal before locking it back up. We also decided to remove the CB every three or four days for a quick inspection; during these times, we check the welds and I get an opportunity for a thorough cleaning. We are also looking into other devices that do not have this problem. The following weekend… My partner and a girlfriend went to a kink educational event, and when she returned, she told me there was much to discuss. She had attended several classes regarding relationships and the M/s and D/d dynamics and concluded that the best direction for us is my serving as the maid. Not the kinky French maid or traditional sissy maid, but the housekeeping maid who was occasionally used sexually by her employer. And yes, I would continue in the female role. Over the last two weeks… I have lived exclusively as the housemaid, except during family or business times when I needed to present as a man. Madam has milked me twice using a 10” long, 1” wide heavily ridged dildo. She finds it amusing that I enjoy the feeling of penetration and react physically well until almost the entire dildo is inside me, at which point it feels too long and becomes very uncomfortable. She fucks me for 10 or 15 minutes with it, deriving pleasure from my uncontrollable mixed reactions to the fucking. It seems funny to her that I am surprised when the ridges running across my prostate effectively milk me; I still don’t realize this until I feel the cum dribbling down my leg. Last Friday… Madam pointed out that housemaids require uniforms, so we went online and ordered three modern maid uniforms in different colors, similar to the one pictured. modern.jpg She further informed me that she had decided our household would follow a Victorian/Edwardian style. When I reach my goal weight on the diet I am currently following, we will order some custom-made period maid uniforms to be my daily wear until further notice. I will be required to wear the uniform and period undergarments at all times within the home. She has suggested I get a copy of the BBC Series “Upstairs, Downstairs” to understand the proper behavior expected from myself (the service aspect, not the shenanigans). The uniform she plans on ordering along with undergarments: uniform.jpg combo.jpg petticoat.jpg The fact that she is already spending money on the mundane uniforms selected on Friday leads me to believe she is very serious about this. I should expect to learn my place and how to be happy in it. I will update this thread as we progress along this path.