Journals and blogs discussion

This may not be my first time posting here, but it is the first time I’m trying out a journal format. With New Year’s approaching, there seems to be no better moment than now. Back in June 2008 when I joined this site, I wrote in my profile: my Soul Mate, my Lover. i am living with the most beautiful Woman i have ever met. We are just 4 years into our relationship, but i feel as i have known Her my whole life. She has begun spanking me and She now keeps me in chastity. She is the most beautiful Women i ever met. Well, a year later she remains my Soul Mate, my Lover, and the most beautiful Woman I’ve encountered. Although we experimented with being locked up on and off during that past year, our relationship has experienced typical ups and downs. However, there is one particular hurdle preventing us from progressing smoothly: She is divorced while I am separated. We have been together for over five years now, but my ex-wife has made it quite chaotic for me/us to start building a life together. I realize the fault lies with me for letting her control the situation and negatively impact our bond. It stems from my aversion to conflict; I will do almost anything to sidestep drama, which unfortunately means my relationship with my soul mate has taken a hit. My Keyholder and I have cohabitated for about four years or more now. That arrangement changed in December 2009 when she asked me to move out so she could gather her thoughts and decide where She wants things to go from here. In turn, I am working on resolving the past issues and finalizing my divorce so we can renew our life together. That covers some of our background; now let’s get into this journal attempt. Back in October, I purchased a CB-6000s device to keep myself locked while she was traveling. It also served as proof of my devotion to Her. Looking back, I see that move wasn’t entirely wise at the time because i conflated our love and devotion with the concept of chastity. I stayed locked, She knew it, and apparently accepted it since we didn’t discuss it much. When I moved out in December, my state took on a new significance. She always feared that if we split up, i would run back to my ex. I assured Her that I neither wanted nor needed to return to her; I desired a life with the Keyholder. Being kept in chastity reassured Her that even after I promised She was all I needed and wanted, I wouldn’t stray. Fast forward to Thursday, December 10th: i visited our/Her apartment where we talked, loved, and laughed as if months hadn’t passed since we last did so well. That night in bed, She released me after more than six weeks of being locked up, and we made love feeling like nothing was wrong between us—no issues, no complicated life circumstances, just wonderfulness. We both missed it deeply. The following morning, she asked if i would lock myself back up, which I did without hesitation. Things have been going well despite holiday stress. Again on Saturday night (12/26), She released me; we made love once more, and Sunday morning after that, I was locked back into our CB-6000s. I used to think chastity was merely about enduring the longest lock-up period, but now i believe one can be locked 24/7 yet still enjoy release when his Keyholder desires intimacy rather than just sex. I hope this hasn’t bored you all too much. I plan to update my journal regularly and hope that his_Keyholder will read along and share Her perspective as well.