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She had me scrubbing the bathroom today while locked up and wearing a humbler, including getting on my knees to clean the tub. Still in the humbler and secured, she delivered six solid thwacks that really woke up my survival instincts—it wasn’t about running away, but the other kind of reaction. Afterward, still feeling humble though unlocked, I got down on all fours while she used a steel prostate massager for milking; it didn’t do much at first, then she decided she was finished with me. I spent two hours uncaged and free to edge my pleasure. Then came the new plug from Square Peg Toys’ happy hour deal—the largest toy in my collection currently. She let me try inserting it myself. It required sitting on it properly, but once in place, I had an accidental orgasm right away. I admitted what happened; she wasn’t angry but sees this as leverage for later. Despite everything, a rebellious spirit rose within me. When I voiced it to her, she quickly ordered me to insert the plug and enter lockdown mode by attaching my strap-on harness to tighten the cage’s fit. Now in lockdown, I’m trying to shed that intense energy so I can settle back into being submissive and obedient. Just needed to get it all out.