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Let me start with some background. My wife and I have been together for roughly three years. I’ve always adored bondage, and about a year ago, I introduced her to chastity play. Since then, we’ve relied on the CB-6000. It began as short 24-to-48-hour stints because she worried it would overwhelm me gradually. Eventually, I persuaded her that she needed to push harder, even if my words suggested otherwise at first. This led to many sessions lasting five or seven days. Those were quite a challenge for me, but they were enjoyable. Seeing her display cruelty really appealed to me, yet I wasn’t sure I could handle being locked up for full weeks. So, I experimented and discovered that with enough lubricant, I could slip out of the CB and put it back on discreetly. With this safety net in place, I started urging her to wait two, three, or even four weeks between releases. Every week or so, I’d sneak away and loved the thrill of knowing she believed she had me denied for that entire period. However, I grew tired of knowing escape was possible. I chose to get pierced and ordered a custom device to return to the “true” sensation of chastity we experienced before I realized how easy it was to slip out. This turned out to be a massive error in judgment. Since she believed I had been enduring two-to-four week stretches for most of the past year, she didn’t ease me into this new phase at all. We are now approaching three weeks… more than triple the longest time I’ve ever stayed locked before. The night before last was particularly brutal; I spent an hour pleading on our living room floor, asking her to show mercy and make an exception. Having heard my past explanations that I wanted absolutely NO ability to safeword out, she refused to yield. I enjoyed the play element of feeling somewhat helpless while knowing she derived pleasure from her perceived control. I thought I would like this setup, but it is far too intense for me long-term. Now I’m unsure whether to confess what I used to do with the plastic device and hope her mercy kicks in now that she knows, or if I should continue begging us to schedule releases more often. Regardless of my choice, I truly regret getting pierced…