Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

I have been pondering this today. You see my girlfriend wants no part in chastity, and I have in the past, and will likely again soon, practice self chastity. I was pondering though is self chastity beneficial and in the spirit of what chastity really is… Or is to me anyway. I know that’s probably different for different people. For me… I do desire an element if control in my life (as this seems to alleviate my Anxiety) but over all I see it as an intriguing way to become a better person and man. Utilizing my sexual nature for more useful ends. To grow as a man and couple with whomever I end up with in an exciting way fueled by desire aimed at her. I find that self chastity can help with my loneliness and need for control a little, but I wonder if it is negatively effecting future chastity experiences with my current or future SO or hopefully one day my wife. I suppose it’s kind of like if you have an epic meal coming later but you eat lots of snacks leading up to it, I wonder if experimenting with self chastity now will spoil my future true chastity experiences, that is of course if the person I end up with will intertain this activity. Dunno just pondering these things I guess.