Last time I had intercourse with my wife/keyholder, I mentioned wanting to extend the duration, proposing a span of around thirty days. She agreed completely since she doesn’t particularly enjoy sex.
The week following an orgasm is typically the toughest for me (as it likely is for most people). Two days ago, I told her that those intense sexual urges were fading as I moved into my second week locked away. It felt almost zen-like; my desire settled down to a much easier level, and the satisfaction of caring for my wife replaced the urge to insert myself wherever possible.
I explained that it reaches a point where I’d prefer to avoid an orgasm just so I don’t have to restart that desperate cycle all over again. I suggested that the longer we go without one, the more appealing abstinence becomes, and somewhat foolishly mentioned that I really like the idea of long-term commitment here. Once before, I lasted four months, but felt quite depressed when I accidentally got released early. Of course, she has full rights to use my penis whenever she wishes—which is rare indeed. So she proposed that next time I get out, it will be solely at her discretion for sex, and I must not ask.
In the last five years, she probably initiated intimacy with me only three or four times. Now that she prefers a vibrator over my penis, these encounters have become quite infrequent. It seems likely I won’t see release for a very long time, though I might just be giving up this rather enjoyable situation.