Confusion Over Teasing Plans

I frequent these forums regularly and often launch threads about whatever occupies my thoughts, yet I rarely find something worthy of sharing. My mind is always buzzing with so much activity that I struggle to pinpoint my feelings or decide what actions to take, ending up rambling until the words outpace me. When I first began having her tease and deny me, she wasn’t very enjoyable company. We tried a fantasy swap where hers was submission and mine was making her keep my dick teased for hours without letting me cum often. Since then, I’ve gotten pretty good at dominating her, but while she has improved, it doesn’t compare to the massive changes in how I present myself to demonstrate the rewards of teasing… =( Basically, i’m doing everything possible to make her life easier, but she isn’t making me feel like I’m getting a fair return on my investment if that makes sense. I truly do all I can to please her, yet I’m beginning to lose faith that this will work. We’ve been observing Sunday sex days for the past few months and i was having a great time, despite the major issue of how much duration she devotes to me. Loving it so much even if I felt like i was doing A through Y in exchange for Z. The weekend marks her birthday so I arranged this romantic trip and on the drive up here she took some initiative with my chastity for the first time, starting to tell me what she desired. I was overjoyed and happy, wanting nothing more than to hug her, but her request has left me feeling quite sad. I’ve been pondering it since yesterday and idk what decision to make. Most people here will probably think this is a trivial matter to be upset about but idk. She wants the exact opposite of my desire: to keep me locked up constantly and only unlock me every other Sunday sex day with one orgasm each month. I know, it’s everyone here’s dream scenario, but i’m so heart broken by it. I don’t want to be confined all the time. Am i being foolish? I think i’m riding some kind of emotional wave or something because the idea of her not wanting to touch me is really making me rethink our entire relationship. I feel like only getting unlocked and teased 4 times a month is pretty extreme as it stands now, especially when she wants to cut my play time in half? It’s really confusing when your dominating someone who hasn’t given you an orgasm in three weeks. I feel so needy now that the plan is for me to stay locked up for the next 8 solid days without any play time. I hate feeling desperate. I think i’ll actually post this one today. Consider yourself my shoulder to cry on. Thanks =)