marq Catch 22

“On one side, the concept of being held back and confined—by something physical, definitive, and stubborn rather than a harsh or intimidating dominant figure—is both terrifyingly arousing to me. It fuels much of my ‘Kopfkino’ (the German term for mental cinema), along with tales I’ve read and memorized online. On the flip side, I’m deeply hooked on masturbation, often at the expense of relationships with important people in my life. I want to curb this habit instead of letting my inner world rule me. A few days ago, a post on that community page noted that the dopamine rush from an orgasm rivals that of cocaine, which clarifies why it feels so addictive (even if some doctors argue over whether ‘addiction’ truly applies since there’s no external substance involved). The article also suggests that undergoing denial for 2 to 8 weeks might be the key to breaking this cycle. Is it worth attempting? Therefore, wearing a chastity device appeals to me on both counts—the fact that these are somewhat opposing motivations is my Catch 22. At present, I’m experimenting again.”,