Iceman47 Squandered Years

As I continue on my journey into chastity, I cannot help reflecting on the time I spent chasing those sexual favors whenever and wherever I could. I also cannot believe the amount of time I wasted in the useless pursuit of masturbation and the harm it caused eventually. I am fortunate that my wife has taken the reigns and assumed control of our relationship and I have totally submitted to her leadership. She is the one who saved me from myself. She is the one who showed me the way with chastity with her demands and expectations. Today, I am to a point that I feel quite normal and comfortable in my locked up state and sometimes do not realize I I am until I have to urinate. The only person who can provide me the arousal I need to obtain an erection is the holder of the keys, my wife. Our situation is that I am retired and she still works. Therefore, I have a lot of time to myself. Our arrangement is that when she is working, I am locked up. When we are together, she determines if I am to be unlocked and that usually entails how aroused she is at the time. I do however, get to be unlocked on the weekends, just as long as we are together either in public or at home. I do have to admit that being on her cycle of sexual arousal has created an enhanced sense of arousal in me that I suppose was previously lost to masturbation and porn. I absolutely love this change and would fight tooth and nail now to maintain it. We have both agreed that my chastity has been a God send and we see no changes anytime soon. Frankly, I do believe I would be very disappointed if it were to change.