I’ve been popping in and out of various forums, but I realized I never actually introduced myself.
I’m a 34-year-old submissive to my girlfriend/Mistress. I stumbled upon this site years ago.
My journey into BDSM started when I was 19; once Pandora’s box opened, I couldn’t get enough. Over the years, I experimented with chastity devices: first a CB2000 and 3000, then eventually moving up to a NeoSteel that grew out on me, followed by a CS500 from Fetish Felix.
I probably started getting into chastity in my mid-20s as the desire for cuckolding and denial began to take hold. However, I hadn’t really committed to full-time wear until this past year when my girlfriend and I decided to explore it more deeply and for longer stretches.
Our dynamic is mostly vanilla at times, but we have intense periods too, and we’re working toward a full TPE lifestyle. Since I’m not particularly skilled in bed, she cuckolds me while I am locked up.
We share the common goal of me becoming her full-time slave—a role I’ve been seeking for many years now. It’s both thrilling and terrifying, let alone frustrating!
Ultimately, we’d love to own a house with a dedicated dungeon room one day. We already try to repurpose our guest bedroom for this purpose; right now, we are looking for a comfortable cage that allows me to sleep well in it.
We hope to find a Bull eventually who is just as interested in participating in controlling me as she is.
It’s been an exciting few years, and I’m grateful for the knowledge available on this site. I am slowly building up my PA piercing to see if the Lori tube is another device worth trying out. The CS500 can get quite intense; while it’s comfortable overall, it does have its moments of discomfort. Of course, she likes how well it works and how constricting it feels.
Anyway, I hope to keep learning more about others in our lifestyle. Sometimes I feel like a bit of an odd duckling. I’ve always wanted this life of slavery, but naturally, it’s hard to find people into it outside of the online world. I’ve also always felt slightly out of place because I’m not as focused on receiving sex; instead, I desire being penetrated or pleasuring someone with my mouth while denied.
Sorry if some of this is rambling. It’s 5:30 AM and I was woken up by the belt, so I figured I’d post while I’m still awake lol.