Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

I am in a long-distance relationship with my wife; we haven’t moved in together yet, but we keep in touch every single day and share a meaningful connection. We are planning to live together soon, and she mentioned earlier that I could practice chastity before our reunion. I have always been very active sexually, paying for online sex and other activities… I just love sex so much, masturbating regularly about 10-12 times a week, even at work, but it wasn’t satisfying—just brief moments—and often while missing my wife. I disliked having such low standards, trying to grab pleasure every way possible. One day we were chatting, and suddenly I decided that I never want to experience any more pleasure until I see her again; I want her to be the only one I think about and fantasize over, not wanting to waste my semen on anything else, just She from now on. She was surprised (and being a religious Christian) looked up into my decision, especially knowing me well, and promised her support; she said it made her feel special. The idea of this turned me on terribly; I was hard all day but excited and happy for my new beginning. I also ordered a chastity device and couldn’t wait to receive it because I was so horny and excited about being locked in and denying ALL pleasure from my cock. Now, for the first time in my adult life, I feel 100% clean and not tempted to flirt with anyone or anything like that. Discussing all the details of my new life with my wife feels great too. I am also getting used to my cage which my wife found very weird at first. She was worried about my health and said she doesn’t want me being locked up again when we meet. Already on the first day of my decision, I felt more in love with her and closer to her—and ONLY her—so it really does goot to relationship. Since then, I have read a lot about life in chastity and woman dominance; the more I read, the more it scares me to imagine that my woman would fully control and use me for her own needs, tease me and deny normal sex from me for an unknown time or lock me up forever. I find life in complete denial is a very exciting experience giving me lots of pleasure, and I feel I have learned a lot by this way of thinking might learn more in future. But the idea of being locked up for eternity… makes me want to cry:) I am kinky and open, I believe, but not submissive i think. Might sound childish but what if wife later in our life find desireable to control me like other woman here after first experience. I love to give but like to take also and want it to be my own decision, scared of the idea what if i feel desire in future for being dominated?! I love my cage though and proud of wearing it. Confusing.