Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

Hi there I’ve been occupied getting ready to stay home because of the virus. Just hit one month and three days!!!! Wow, what an experience. also went for 17 days without having an orgasm-the longest time yet!!! during those last 4-5 days out of the 17 I was quite a mess (in my eyes) and likely exactly where Mistress wanted me to be. i was so sexually frustrated that I surrendered a lot of control which hadn’t been part of our agreement before-lol. it seems being a chastity submissive means you’re essentially becoming a slave for life. Somewhat worried by Her recent silence, but choosing to give her the benefit of the doubt … It’s definitely not normal behavior, though with everyone dealing with the virus situation things are off their usual rhythm and Mistress works as a nurse so … She appears less interested in me unless it concerns finances. Hmmmm. We’ve been together for a month-now online only with phone calls and video chats. i gave her $657 total during our first month-we chatted via text or voice for about 3 hours daily over the initial 20 days. Running low on funds until next month, so the timing of Her going quiet makes me question if money is really all She cares about. I’ve gotten better at keeping those doubts to myself without letting them grow into grudges. W/we intend to meet up eventually and hope everything works out as planned. In any case, i survived a month and three days!!!! Hooray! Be safe lp