I need a bit of assistance figuring out what I’m experiencing and hope some of you can help.
So, I’m unsure whether I’m dealing with post-orgasm blues or just general resentment toward being in chastity right now.
First off, I was permitted to cum through PIV with my mistress a couple of nights ago. It was a brief session for both of us, and we both reached orgasm quite quickly. We had each been waiting three weeks due to colds, family visiting, overworking, and whatever else the holidays bring. We were both craving attention from one another but literally couldn’t touch each other for those solid three weeks. My usual wait time in recent months has been 7 to 14 days. Waiting three weeks wasn’t really a big deal; I’ve never felt hornier than before, especially since I am so submissive toward my mistress. The only thing that teased me during that period was Tumblr, which provided plenty of content for me.
So, I played with my mistress’s clit until she came very quickly, then she spread her legs, and within two minutes I was finished. The orgasms didn’t even feel particularly good; it felt like I was just peeing cum out. I might have accidentally given myself a ruined orgasm because I tried to hold back at different times. In the end, I was left feeling disappointed.
I’ve been grumpy with my mistress for the last couple of days since then. I haven’t really wanted to do anything special for her, like rubbing against her or doing other things. It’s a strange feeling; it seems like I want to be left alone, but at the same time, I don’t. I still perform all the tasks I used to, mostly out of habit.
I suppose this could be a post-orgasm reaction to three weeks without cumming, but I’m also wondering if I am becoming resentful toward my mistress for other reasons. My mistress has never been heavy on T&D; she generally sounds interested when I bring up kinky ideas, but then doesn’t really pursue them or forgets about them. Whenever I try to be cuddly with her, she often accuses me of just wanting sex, even though the reality is that I just want to feel close to her.
To be honest, I am getting quite bored with chastity because we have been at this for nearly two years, and I don’t feel like she has tried to take what we have further. It feels as though she won’t try to communicate her wants and desires or what she is willing to try. She doesn’t research content related to chastity for ideas, and overall, I don’t feel like she’s even trying for me. I realize that my efforts are supposed to be tenfold over hers, but I feel like I am trying really hard for her while receiving only the bare minimum in return. I notice I have started slacking because it feels as though there are no repercussions for me; she isn’t making this fun for me yet enjoys all the perks of being treated like an absolute queen. I know she loves chastity because she has told me so many times without me even asking. Don’t get me wrong, I love my wife and really enjoy making her feel like a queen, but I am at a point where I think I want to quit. I didn’t think I would truly want to go back to how things were before, but I am starting to feel that way.
Because of all the shit that has happened this last month, I plan to wait until the end of January before saying anything to her about wanting to quit at least needing a change. Maybe it’s just me feeling the strain from this past month. But in the end, something needs to change.
I would love to hear any thoughts and opinions you might have on what I’ve written.