Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

Has anyone else ever wondered: Do I fit in with the crowd? Probably:) I pose myself many questions like that, and honestly, it doesn’t matter much to me if the answer shows I’m ordinary or a bit unique… Lately, though, I’ve been wondering whether my “returning to submission after release” follows a set pattern, or if we each have our own individual rhythm… When I get one of my increasingly rare releases, my cycle seems to unfold like this: (And I know nothing about ruined orgasms, since they are never offered to me) The day after release - I wonder what the point of all this is. Why don’t we just move on? Sex feels overrated and takes up too much time. As for submission, I do as I’m told, but my mind finds it rather peculiar; the level of service isn’t quite where it was before the break. It doesn’t feel natural yet. The second day after release - The lust starts to build again, which is when I get ordered back into the Steel Tube. Yet, the memory of that release just two days prior remains sharp… and exciting… But I’m not going crazy. I still feel quite pleased… The Device helps - I begin feeling submissive and service-oriented again without needing to pretend.. The third through tenth day after release - My horniness grows stronger. I want to touch her, kiss her, feel her, go down on her – twenty times a day if permitted – and the night erections inside the tube are becoming longer and harder. I crave teasing from her, squeezing; submission and the urge to do chores and serve her in every way begin returning to their peak. The eleventh through twentieth day after release - Gradually, I stop thinking so much about the device, my needs, or my “state of being.” It all just becomes what it is, how it’s meant to be. And I’m content; yes, happy!, thrilled!, and very satisfied. All I desire is serving her and sharing in her climaxes. When she reaches hers while I bring her there, the feeling is wonderful. The twenty-first day after release and beyond - I am settled into full submission, looking back on the roller coaster ride that a release brings to me, along with the hassle it causes my wife, eventually concluding that for the sake of her – and all humanity – being kept from release forever might be just as good. Really, why endure all that turmoil if you feel so good and are so service-minded once you reach this level? I’m willing to give up on release, but not intimacy. She is too. Thank God she lets me in, and I control myself enough not to cum. That’s heaven! Until now, I haven’t “had the privilege” of being denied for more than 8 weeks straight, but she wants to push it further, much further since she has taken up penetration again. That, plus oral service, massages, chores, and plenty more fills her cup:) so further denial won’t take anything away from her, ensuring a steady level of deep submission and supreme service. I’d love to hear from others - does this cycle seem familiar in any way? Also, where do you differ? Am I alone with this (I guess not!!), or how much do we all share in our chastity experiences…? Sincerely BlueEyes (allowed to post - Lol…)