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Some general thoughts… I believe I came across something regarding chastity belts within one of those erotic tales… it’s a bit hazy, but it completely blew my mind. It gradually turned into one of my primary kinks, if not the absolute biggest. It can be confusing, isn’t it? To feel arousal when you are denied? Perhaps it is that contradiction which drives the excitement… or maybe it’s the sensation of being under control. Hard to pinpoint! I experimented with these dynamics a couple of years back, but it wasn’t ‘serious’. Last year was different… For most of last year, I used to engage in play with an online friend. She “held my key” (not literally speaking, as she lived quite far away and we wanted to avoid any mishaps) and essentially controlled when I was permitted to release from my belt. It was fun, genuinely fun! We started off slowly (just a week!), but soon enough I began being locked up for longer durations… well, I say “locked up” but actually it should be described as “teased and denied”: one of her favorite activities was instructing me to play with myself until reaching the edge… and that would do. Often more than once each night, naturally. It felt so humiliating, yet simultaneously thrilling! She’d have me spank my own bottom, she’d make me beg for extended time in chastity, she’d compel me to tease myself until I could hardly stand it - and then she’d simply tell me to lock the belt shut again. I recall how frustrated I was, but also how excited I felt when after my longest period of being locked (one hundred days), she teased me for what seemed like hours - and then made me ruin my orgasm. Good times… blushes What about now? Well, I have a CB3000 sitting at home, but I am not currently playing with anyone. Sometimes it’s difficult to find the right person! And considering there are usually a lot more subs than dommes, that is just normal!