Female led relationships discussion

For ten days since the start, Mistress has kept me unlocked and I was bracing for relocking. But as those days passed, my dread of being locked up again grew. Normally, if she relocks me a day or two later, I accept it—I am here for her, and that’s how it ought to be. This time, though, the longer the days went on, the more certain I became: I don’t want to be confined. When I was told this morning to lock up, I hated the thought at first but then realized I had no choice. The more I pondered it, the more aroused I got; it took me over twenty minutes before I finally secured myself. Now that I am locked, I shared my feelings with Mistress—she laughed so hard I’d never seen her do that. Discovering I didn’t want to lock barely amused her at all. But now that I’m in there, being confined feels right again for my mistress I actually enjoy knowing she was pleased and entertained by the process do other subs/slaves experience these conflicting emotions? I suspect if Mistress leaves me unlocked for just a day or two from now on, I will beg to be put back inside. Love it,, hate it Love it hate it Perhaps it’s time I stop overanalyzing everything and simply accept things as they are