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Here I go… I’ve had a chastity fetish since I was a teenager. When I was about to turn 16, my first semi-serious romantic interest, who was much more sophisticated at 17 and who sadly did not return my puppy love, allowed me to visit her in her guest house for a few days. That was three days of being teased by her kisses and her words and having no good opportunity to masturbate. She granted me permission to do so on the third day, without her direct involvement. Almost a decade later, the CB-2000 was released. I got one as soon as the price dropped below $300 but didn’t have any worthy play partners for a while until I had a brief online relationship with someone who reactivated and refined my tease-and-denial fetish. A year later I had my first ruined orgasm at the (unintentional!) order of a mostly submissive sex partner who at the time was topping me without too much interest. I was very frustrated and intrigued, as anyone would be after their first ruined O, and the seed was planted in fertile soil. Fast forward with me another decade to the present… being in a declining but open relationship with someone who was a great vanilla partner, minus a few minor human foibles, but wasn’t very excited about my kinks; being fairly despondent and disappointed about losing this friend, lover, companion, partner; but at the same time glad to be more free to find a primary partner who understands me a little better. I had just started some new medication and my reawakened libido came with a reawakening of my compulsive masturbation habit, and it had gotten pretty distracting. I speak to one of my other former partners, who had experience playing with me in chastity and not long ago also had a relationship crash because it wasn’t working for her sexually, and at some point our conversation turns to my excess. To make a long story short, she expressed interest in being my keyholder and controlling my penis once I had a device that was comfortable and once we can find a workable way to deal with living almost an hour apart. Just a few days earlier, Altairboy’s site was updated with a new post about using vinyl tubing to replace the A-ring on a CB-6000 for added comfort, and I adapted the technique to my old CB-2000 with a broken A-ring. Instead of the A-ring, I’m using the mildest Points of Intrigue to retain the vinyl tubing on the guide pins, which makes it rather uncomfortable to wear overnights. The next step is to cut the points down and mold a silicone pad over them, to press the penis down and provide friction to keep it in place and resist pullout while still permitting comfortable and continuous wear. At about the same time, I went to a local geek event and met someone with whom I shared an instant mutual attraction. I ended up at her place that night, and gave her at least a dozen orgasms. I had asked at the beginning of the night for her not to let me come since I was going to a party the next day, and she did so. At one point she was grinding her attractively scented and freshly shaved sex against my face, her gloved hand stroking up and down my cock with nearly unprecedented skill, keeping me oh so close to the edge, while she came in little gushes that I hungrily swallowed in between whimpering and moaning as she continued teasing me, my arms hugged tightly around her waist trying to pull her in for more. That was my Forever Place, the moment I wish never had to end. Her hand cramped after 45 minutes of this exquisite torment, which she followed with a completely unnecessary apology for “being out of practice”! A couple of hours of cuddling and talking later, I left her place with her scent on my face and her ache in my groin. A few days later, after negotiating and understanding our respective situations, she invited me over later this week for at least three hours that are all about me. Fortunately, each of them knows of the other and hasn’t objected to the situation, even though they haven’t met one another yet. Both of them seem interested to very interested in the T&D, domination and chastity play. I do intend to introduce them at some point as I think their interests in me seem to be mostly complementary and vice versa. I’m a bit scared what might happen to me if they did team up, but on the other hand, a whole day of tag-team tease torture and some medium-long-term orgasm denial are two things that have been on my bucket list for years. So there’s a potentially awesome situation brewing in my life after a few years of being mildly unsatisfied with my partner’s lack of interest and enthusiasm in chastity. I think the three of us could go to some very interesting places indeed, if everything works out.