Blog post..
The mistress has been teasing me regarding her plans when we bring a stud into the house. She keeps talking about securing me to the bench so the stud can fuck me (which thrills me greatly). But.. (and this is a big but), she has also threatened to stroke me off while I am tied down and getting fucked. Of course that would be wonderful, right up until i cum. After i cum though, there is ‘The Crash’. In the mood I’m in now, i am very turned on by the idea of being forced to cum while being fucked, then having no choice but to keep being fucked (and forced to suck cock) after crashing, but i just know that once placed in that position, well, it could be quite bad.. LOL. But i suggest this often too: force me to cum then peg my ass, or keep me tied up after i cum, insert a large butt plug, turn on the porn, and head out for 30 minutes.. return later and continue.. So every time she teases me about it, it gets me going, but i am not sure if i would ever want to go through with it. It is just like eating cum.. Every time before i cum, i really really want to be forced to eat it, but every time after i cum, the few times i have been forced, it is quite a struggle, gagging and almost throwing up. I just dont get it, how can something which can be so discusting be so appealing at the same time. Even now, knowing how i would feel after a cum, I still want to eat, fantasize about eating my own cum.. I want to be forced to eat it, we even have a contract that says i must eat it, every time. Fortunatly (or unfortunatly), my mistress likes to take pitty on me, and often doesnt force me, for which i am glad at the time.. I guess that is why giving a guy a blowjob appeals so much; i could give someone head (mmm), have them cum in my mouth, eat it, all without cuming myself, and crashing back into reality (or perhaps i live in reality, and i crash into an evil place from which my chastity belt helps me escape from).. The mistress often comments that she likes me much better when i am locked up and horney, because after i cum and crash, I guess i can be a little grumpy / hard to deal with, or whatever.. So she has told me i am not going to get to cum very often anymore (i can handle this).. But i would suggest that if i were forced to eat my cum every time, and probably get back into the belt almost immediately after cuming, it would probably help enforce my submission, and probably get me back into the correct head-space faster. Although even when horney, I do enjoy some time out of the belt (last night was nice, i didn’t do anything, but still nice to have a night out of the belt), so maybe just a periodic time out whenever she chooses could be a reward or whatever, but probably shouldnt happen right after cuming. I think i should always go straight back into the belt after cuming, every time, for at least a day.