Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

I’ve spent the last month unlocked after being locked for about three months, with only a few exceptions. Sir told me there were no rules and I ended up jerking off non-stop like such a pathetic slut. Last week we had an incredible session where he let me worship his large cock and take his massive load in my mouth. Afterward, he strapped on the ball crusher, made me get onto all fours, and whipped me mercilessly with a paddle for nearly two hours. My small dick stayed rock hard and dripping throughout the whole time while he ignored it completely. I felt like I was in heaven. Once I returned home, I immediately started jerking off again. It really is pathetic behavior. He just returned from his travels so I pleaded to be locked up once more but he replied “not yet.” He needed to visit his boyfriend’s place and get pounded for two consecutive days. He knows how desperately I crave being restrained and is deliberately denying me as a form of torture. I never imagined I would desire the lock this much. I realize my lack of self-control requires him to keep me under control so I can become a better submissive. I’m 99% certain he’ll put me back in the cage next week, and I believe he will make sure I pay for all this freedom. My only hope is that this time around he keeps me locked up for an extended period. /slaverantover