I’ve already made my introduction, and I’m feeling quite downcast and troubled today. After years of finally mustering up the courage to ask my very vanilla wife (who I love and value more than anything), I expected her to be more receptive and eager to get involved.
That was what I thought. Following issues with erections and potential ruined orgasms during the last two times she let me out, she locked me in on Friday morning. She seemed to go along with it. On Friday night she went out, told me to put the kids to bed and tidy up the house, came home ordered a foot rub (where I was literally kneeling at the edge of the bed while she scrolled Facebook), and wanted to cuddle. No release. Saturday found me buzzing with energy doing chores, even carving out time for her twice so she could go out for coffee and enjoy herself, followed by dinner with friends. When I came home, I wanted another cuddle. Still no Release. Sunday involved more chores, an hour-long foot rub while watching TV, and then just as we were about to get intimate again, she had a social media issue and wanted to talk and cuddle once more. On Monday, I went to work, returned home, did the chores, put the kids to bed, and finally got some time to play…
So bear in mind that for the last couple of days, I have been straining against the cage trying to get hard and leaking chastity tears everywhere. So after a very long back and leg rub, she unlocked me so I could go down on her and bring her to two climaxes.
I couldn’t get it up, but I was horny as hell. What. The. Fuck? After days of wanting to get out, the moment to shine arrived, yet I am so limp. She got very upset, started crying and said this is too much for her and she’s worried about me. We talked about it, and I think for me it’s mental. I don’t believe it’s health-related, but I’m not sure. Talk about the whole fucking fantasy thing just crashing right before your eyes. She tried to jerk me off, but still only half hard. We chatted a bit more, and went to bed unlocked.
In the morning as I got ready for work and was about to walk out the door, she pulled me aside and said let’s keep trying and move forward. “Go get yourself ready” She made me lock up again to go to work where I write this now. I think she is on board but two hours later told me not to pressure her as it feels like too much.
In the meantime, I emailed my doctor about Viagra and Cialis. She is writing a script for our pharmacy for tonight. I want to see if it’s just me mentally, or if there’s something else going on. (I was having some minor issues, mostly midway performance problems)
One thing I don’t understand is that the chastity made me soooo horny and compliant, literally willing to do anything for my wife. Her touch was electric. Her kisses were magical. I couldn’t resist her body. I was loving this retraining of my brain. Why didn’t I get hard when I finally got the chance?
Also, today - I’m just not feeling it. The feelings are gone. Well, shit. Furthermore, while doing a midday comfort lube of the base ring - I realized my penis can easily slip out of the HTV3. That super fucking sucks. The whole situation kinda sucks right now.