Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

Hi there! I wanted to share a quick update. For some reason, I haven’t been very active here lately; it feels like I’ve missed out for the past couple of months or so. Anyway, I’m back to let you know what’s happening with me. Obviously, I am locked up, usually keeping myself in that state for about three weeks at a stretch before getting released for PIV intercourse. My attempt at Locktober was not very successful. The swelling and denial became quite unbearable. Eventually, safety concerns forced me to take a break, but November went really well! I stayed locked the entire month plus an extra few days—I think it totaled 32 or 33 days in all. We’ve been using strap-ons for years now. Recently, even while wearing my lock, I have managed to cum through that method. One thing that consistently happens after my orgasm is that I get quite stubborn. It’s as if I drop from a peak of euphoria right down to rock bottom. Usually, it takes me several days to return to my normal self. Lately, however, the last few days have been tough both emotionally and physically. There seems to be a lot going on in my life at the moment. Between marriage, family duties, and kids, everything feels like it’s piling up on me. Perhaps I’m overreacting or being a bit childish; I can’t quite tell. One thing that really frustrates me is how I constantly search for stories about other real-life chastity couples. Most of them seem fake to me, but I keep trying to find the genuine ones. There was another couple whose routine caught my eye and sounded wonderful. I got their details and showed them to my Domina/wife, but she hasn’t really paid much attention at all. That happened over a month ago now. Also, while I generally prefer submitting from below, sometimes I need to take the lead just to keep things interesting and prevent this lifestyle from becoming stale or dull. She enjoys it too, though occasionally I feel like I’m putting in more effort than she is. So maybe that’s not so confusing after all! Merry Christmas to everyone.