For most people, and even for me personally, chastity and denial started as a fetish that I treated like a game until I got fitted with an inescapable device. Someone else locked it up—someone whose goal wasn’t just to feed my fetish but actually to deny me access to my own penis.
The device stays on after the initial fitting and sizing period, which felt real enough because I was usually allowed out then. But now that my mistress is convinced I can handle days or even weeks in the cage, and satisfied that the security is tight enough for me not to defeat it without her knowing, she says it’s time to make this permanent: I stay locked in her cage, and she keeps the keys.
Security was my top priority because I know that after a long stretch of confinement, I’d try to sneak out. So we spent time figuring out how to secure the device properly. For us, the Looker1 design offers the best security; if I manage to pull it off, I can’t put it back on without getting stuck in a precarious spot with just the cage attached.
Because of this fear, I don’t even try to escape when she demands immediate proof that I’m wearing it.
So now that I’ve submitted, how does it feel?
At first, handing over the keys was exciting. But after about a day or two, the realization hit hard: my chastity is real. I have to sit down to pee, constantly touch the cage knowing I can’t get an erection, and spend more time cleaning up after using the bathroom. I feel horny all the time and want release but simply cannot. Yes, I’ve experienced these feelings during testing and training for full-time wear, but being truly locked in adds a new perspective. It isn’t always exciting; sometimes it’s very frustrating as you realize you can’t just take it off. This starts the acceptance process where you come to terms with never self-masturbating again—a huge deal when your device has been attached for several weeks.
Chastity becomes serious. There are times I wonder if I made the right choice because reality isn’t always as thrilling as the fetish, where you can just get out whenever you want. You definitely feel less masculine; without a functioning penis available, you can no longer service a woman like a real man unless given permission.
However, even with those negative feelings—especially when being ignored by your keyholder while still locked—I find myself more sexually fulfilled from the constant horniness than I was when I could freely relieve myself.
I now enjoy my submission and am coming to accept that what I wished for has become my life: a life without free access to my penis.
I wouldn’t have it any other way, though. The journey here was worth it, even if frustrating at times.
Isn’t that what we’re asking for? Before being locked with no easy escape route, it was always just a game. Now the game is over and the chastity life begins.
It’s harder than I thought, but worth it. Mitch