Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

I want to share my story and strange feelings. After six month locking without any release in the mm, the situation is that i try every to make my kh into the orgasm to earn the release, but i seems that the more kh get the orgasm, the more she want to put me in the cage . Now when ask anything about the release time,she would put me cuffed back,mouth gagged and the blind for allmost the whole day and strap-on to make her orgasm . But the most terrible thing is that after so long time of serving her and being humilatted、bounded 、caged, i am not dare to revolt her ，and begin to enjoy the new situation a little. So my question is that, dose anyone has the same experience with me, what would happen next to me if without any changed . what i worried about is the cuckold and the no released at all to me, i only can use my tongue and the strap to work, and Now something has happened, my dick seems to get shorter and i do not has many desire to make love compare the time without the cage, i know that the goal of the chastity is less male orgasm and more for the kh to make the life good, but when something is hypercorrection,how to make it back to the right pathway and do not let mylovely kh down. Thx everyone,please share your idea, it is so importance to me now