I struggle to put into words the feelings I experienced during and after my most recent orgasm. Perhaps those who have gone through this can help clarify it. It has been more than six weeks since I last had PIV, though mistress typically gives me an orgasm once a week or every ten days. When she permits these weekly releases, they are usually via hand job. Currently, there are no T&D sessions, milking, or ruined orgasms because mistress isn’t keen on those right now. What appeals to her is that I climax very quickly, which makes her feel powerful.
Over the past few months, my ability to hold back an orgasm has become nearly impossible. I knew it was getting tougher, but in the last three times she allowed me one, they all happened in under 30 seconds! Last Saturday, mistress and I were playing around when she uncaged me. While I was pleasuring her, I begged for PIV. She replied, “Don’t worry, I will; I want you inside me as soon as I cum.” About fifteen minutes later, mistress had a toe-curling orgasm.
I was so hard and ready that I grabbed a condom, struggling to put it on due to anticipation and excitement. Once inserted, I took the top position with mistress, savoring the intense sensation of going in. She looked at me and smiled her beautiful smile, though there was something slightly sinister behind it as she said, “You aren’t going to last long.” I really wanted to endure; once inside her, I realized just how much I missed PIV sex with her. I slowly built a rhythm, then mistress began working her hips and flexing her muscles down there. My orgasm started to rise, so I thrust faster and had another toe-curling climax.
I looked at my mistress and she actually laughed! At that moment, I felt humiliated and under her power. Surprisingly, this humiliation turned me on while I was still inside her. I felt a bit pathetic, but she didn’t mind because she finds it hot that I want her so badly that I have lost much of my lasting ability. Is this what being submissive is all about? Or did I just discover that I enjoy humiliation? Has anyone else had these same feelings???
