feeling somewhat guilty

So I emerged from a month in chastity without an orgasm. There was some redness and soreness around the base ring, but it has all healed up now. The main reason for my release was a work trip to Arizona that I had to take. Being away for a week means a week of freedom and masturbation. I feel somewhat guilty about masturbating, and I am unsure about how things stand back home regarding our chastity arrangement. When I left, I sent my wife a letter saying I loved the last month of denial and enjoyed her slowly taking more dominance over our sex life. I asked her to place the device on the dashboard when she came to pick me up, though I don’t know if she will actually do that or not. Additionally, I told her that upon my return, I plan to give her complete and utter control over everything sexual concerning my cock. I said I didn’t want to touch the key myself—not even to lock it up or unlock it for cleanings. I went so far as to tell her that I wouldn’t ask or remind her about unlocking for cleanings either; she would have full control. In the letter, I made clear that I understood this was a big step and put significant pressure on her. I hope she is ready for such a dominating lifestyle because I know I am. Well, I’m writing this post while sitting in the airport, ready to head back home. I hope my wife greets me with strictness when we meet.