I’m back after a break. I completed 19 days of tease and denial, followed by another 9 days. Then came nearly a month of freedom which was lovely. Suddenly my girlfriend announced she wants to begin a new streak that might last longer than the previous 19 days. I was surprised and slightly anxious but agreed since isn’t this what I desired? It had already been three days in, so I felt like I started with an advantage.
Day 5 arrived while I was enjoying some tease and denial content on Tumblr when I went a stroke too far. I sensed it building up and couldn’t hold it back. I stopped all stimulation and tried to will the sensation away but it was too late. My four days of work were wasted in dribbles. No orgasm. What made it worse was the feeling that I had betrayed my girlfriend for the first time. When I told her this morning, she seemed disappointed but not excessively so. I explained the ruined state and she remarked, “I’m kinda glad you didn’t enjoy it.” I still feel like I need to make amends and deserve a penalty, though I don’t believe one will be imposed. Aside from handcuffs, blindfolds, tease and denial, we are quite vanilla. I’d try anything but I doubt she is into punishment. She might add some days to my next release or do a bit more teasing when we meet up again, yet it still feels insufficient. Also, I remain horny and let down by the ruined orgasm because although I have self-pleasured before, I usually follow that with a real one within the day.
Anyway, does anyone have other ideas for punishment or reconciliation to make up for my accident, considering we are basically vanilla? Whips and pain seem unlikely. Thanks.