I'm not sure why either, but...

(My wife had to be gone from last night, so I guess I just have the urge to communicate after a lonely night in our empty bed). I love my wife and I am a really lucky man. My wife has been totally cool about our experimenting with enforced chastity. I don’t even fully understand why I want this. I love to cum. I have loved it ever since the first time I made myself cum by accident when I was 12. I have been doing it a lot for the past 30 years. But, here is the key part I don’t really understand myself: I love being under my wife’s control more than I love cumming. We are still newbies to this. I am at the 7 day mark right now. The past two times she made me go 12 days and 9 days before cumming. So far it seems that if I really want to cum she lets me do so. We have never gone long enough that I have felt truly desparate and actually begged. I don’t think she will be able to say “NO” in that situation. And, as I said before, the key part for me is that I like being under her control more than I actually like cumming. Do you guys feel that way too?