Introductions discussion

Hi there. I wonder if I have the right standing to be here, since I’m a male who is fully locked up rather than just visiting. However, after years of being drawn to control—interest that recently culminated in me getting a CB6000s about three weeks ago—I decided it was time to stop lurking and speak openly. I’ve been reading various threads with pleasure and have already spent up to five days inside the device so far. I’m married, our children are grown, and we share a warm bond; my wife is someone I truly adore. The topic of control has come up many times between us, though it doesn’t seem to be her primary passion just yet. We’ve shared some pleasant light bondage experiences together, and she’s aware of my fondness for dressing in feminine attire. When I travel for work—something that happens more often lately—I get really thrilled at the idea of self-denial, locking myself into my device, and daydreaming about being managed by someone else; it’s a huge turn-on for me. Layered with my lifelong love of wearing silky panties, delicate dresses, stockings, heels, and the tightest corset I can endure creates pure excitement. Many nights away from home have been spent in this outfit, dreaming of giving “O” to my keeper… or whoever she chooses. I think I yearn to be a sissy because I find so many sissy blogs incredibly arousing, and I love watching my transformed silhouette in the mirror. But ultimately, it’s that sensation of surrendering control that really clicks for me. Perhaps you’d describe me as curious, since I haven’t fully stepped into reality yet. To put it simply: I get aroused by control, bondage, corsets, light panties, short dresses that highlight my perky bottom, high heels, oral play, nipple stimulation, and the idea of milking. Simply discussing all this feels freeing, a bit frightening, and thrilling—a very fresh experience for me. And imagining a mistress or master reading about it is quite an event! I just wanted to greet everyone who lives in this scene. You seem braver than I am! The big question remains: should I stay?