Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

My wife recently allowed me out after three and a half days to check for any problems down there and give us some breathing room before I take on a longer period. This made me consider the contrast between having someone else hold the keys versus managing my own chastity or exercising self-control. One point I raised with her is that when she holds the key while I’m locked, there’s a much stronger feeling of submission and a desire to please her. I even suggested that being secured by her feels like losing connection to my manhood—a core part of who I am (and likely what most men feel). It’s not just about being cut off; it has truly become hers because she controls when, how, and if I’m released. Since she possesses this vital piece of me, I feel that in a sense, she owns me too. We’ve been talking about switching to a more mature metal device to help with hygiene, and I wonder if those feelings will shift slightly. Even though the CB-6000 gets smelly, it effectively blocks me from touching my penis directly. Simple tasks like showering or adjusting myself feel strange because everything is sealed off—the strangeness of that situation is hard to explain unless you’ve lived it. Comparing this state with being out for some air: it’s worlds apart. Instead of living under another person’s authority, I am governing myself. Rather than relying on her permission for relief, she must trust me not to break our agreement. When the lock first opened, freedom felt overwhelming and liberating. But now that nearly 24 hours have passed since my release, I admitted to her that I’m starting to feel uneasy about sticking with self-control. Fortunately, she is very understanding; she says it’s tough and suggests I put myself back in as long as nothing hurts down there. She definitely doesn’t want me cheating though she’d be disappointed if I did, but she knows this journey stretches out over time rather than being a quick dash.