Don’t let the thread title fool you; I’m doing this all over again!:)
It’s about time for an introduction! Please forgive the missing avatar; it needs resizing because it is currently 2k too large. I actually joined this place ages ago but never posted, so I am finally setting that right. First-time reader? Years back I tried the CB3k. I still have it somewhere—probably lost after moving house—but it didn’t really click with me then. To clarify my build: I’m quite petite with a high and very snug scrotum. This week I picked up the CB6Ks, and since then, I’ve been “comfortably locked” most of the time. The mornings are literally painful—not in terms of morning glory, but those little fellows try to escape while I sleep! To make it work, I have to use the largest ring paired with the second-largest locking pin/spacer. It’s the only setup that fits. Now for the reason behind all this chastity? Hmm…It comes down to personal denial. I’ve been lucky enough over the years to enjoy good relationships and even dated a few Pro Dommes. I recently had the chance to “perform” in some ballbusting videos but had to back out because of scheduling conflicts. But as I said, it is deeply personal. A couple of years ago, an illness and its accompanying medications left me unable to maintain an erection reliably, though masturbation remains possible. I manage about 50% erections now. Honestly, I don’t see this as a drawback; more like a blessing. The real issue was my habit of masturbating. So I decided to quit. It is tough, and I am only on day four so far. When I wore the CB3k before, it had an odd effect: heightened awareness mixed with somewhat confusing signals. If I sound confused now, blame the CB6Ks!;)
Here is my crazy plan. Being single means it relies entirely on self-discipline, which isn’t exactly my strongest suit. Before diving into the details of this mad scheme: I have a serious shoe fetish; I collect ladies’ shoes in specific styles and buy them via eBay. I also have a doll fetish—adult dolls like Silkstone Barbies, Gene, and others. I had to quit that hobby because it consumed my credit cards (which are now extinct!). Since I am not yet fully chaste—I still need to remove the device in the mornings for work reasons despite some pain—I’ve established these rules:
- No masturbation for 31 days (starting July 1st).
- No internet access except for work email unless I am locked up. This means no browsing adult forums or eBay while unlocked.
- No touching, and even looking at my shoe collection if possible, when not locked in. The same rule applies to the dolls (I already sold the Silksones).
- Parcels arrive from shoe sellers; I cannot open them unless fully locked.
- Any slip-up adds one calendar month backdated. So, if I fail in July, I must continue through August as well.
Okay, it’s not perfect. After just four days, I had a struggle but managed to get through while unlocked. The idea is that if I survive the first 31 days, I add another month on top and keep going indefinitely. I plan to buy a Birdlocked Pico device. Given my high-tight anatomy, it might be tricky, but I have a feeling it will work. It would be perfect for night wear. I am already thinking of staying locked until the end of this month when I can physically “release” myself. To be honest, I hope it lasts much longer!:D