Journals and blogs discussion

After spending a few days on this wonderful site I’ve decided to start my own journal to gather opinions and encouragement from like-minded folks. So here goes… My story, in short, is about wanting to be in chastity around the clock however My Love doesn’t seem to grasp this or just isn’t keen to participate so I only wear a cage when she permits. My previous lock up lasted 9 days it was wonderful, My Love needed satisfaction, and also unfortunately wanted me to orgasm. That happened 5 days ago and today it is quite hard not to think about how much I feel the urge to O again. I have the evening free and am worried that I won’t be able to hold back while My Love is out. I really want to ask her to lock me up but fear pushing her away; I don’t believe she fully gets my desire for her to control my orgasms. I love her more than anything though i feel much nearer to her when I am her pet. Any advice on handling this would be great.