Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

There is such a psychological aspect to this whole lifestyle. Obviously, there must be a Domme/sub dynamic to create the gameboard so to speak. I love being locked by my keyholder, and she loves the attention and motivation it brings out in me. We always seem to come full circle every time however, to basically me being disappointed with the amount of reciprocal attention fron her to me in the aspect of the ‘game’ as we call it. Basically, i end up feeling like it’s a one way street at times, where i am all consumed by it all (being locked 24/7 makes it hard to forget about) and she can easily forget, or not make high on the priority list BDSM activities that come with it all. Men obviously have an idea of the fantasy of it all, and after a few years of it, i understand that the fantasy is not really a feasible thing to accomplish with real life always right in your face. Basically, at this point, chastity is ultimately up to me, it’s not truly ‘forced’ but i become grumpy and dissatisfied with a lack of reciprocal ‘domming’ from her.. I know most of the replies will be ’ just make her happy’ or ‘slaves accept whatever they get’, and i get that sentiment. Sometimes though, maybe i want my ass smacked, maybe i want to be forced into panties, maybe i want to be plugged… Maybe i need to not feel forgotten about locked away in a cage. Ok, time to learn how wrong i am! Lol