If you’ve been following my diary at all, you’ll know that Master and I are still working through the challenges of keeping a 24/7 D/s dynamic alive. Weekend sessions go well enough, but by Monday things tend to loosen up, usually taking until Saturday for us to find our rhythm again.
I truly enjoy our time together and care deeply for Master, yet I desire more from our relationship than just playtime moments. I know I can be a good sub and have proved it many times over.
It feels right when I’m certain in my heart that I am Master’s slave gurl; I love the sensation of submitting. However, if things start to drift, I usually succumb to sub drop pretty quickly.
I realize I’m not perfect—I can be a bit high-maintenance and sometimes need a firm push to keep going. I require consistent attention and reminders about my status.
Weekdays often leave me feeling weary, but I know I have the capacity to serve; I just need that drive from Master because self-motivation doesn’t always come naturally.
I suppose my main question is: how can I make things simpler for him? Considering that I do rely on his motivation quite a bit.