Hi all, Here is my introduction to the forum. I think the best way for me to introduce myself is by sharing how chastity feels and fits into my experiences. As far back as I can recall, I’ve always had an interest in some form of female supremacy. About five years ago, I first encountered chastity and denial. At first, it was just another kink for my pleasure—being dominated and controlled by women—but once I really started practicing it, it became very special to me.
I began with short periods of self-denial, then got my first cage, and eventually found someone else to hold the key. Over time, I’ve had several temporary keyholders: some from EmlaLock, one in person, and a few who paid for their control. No matter how surrender happens, I love watching it influence me over time.
It starts as its own kink—denial and lusting purely for the sake of those things—which appeals to my side as a masochist and submissive. However, after a few days pass, two big changes occur. The first is pretty clear: I become constantly aroused. Seeing an attractive woman while out in public triggers that same feeling anyone gets when noticing physical attraction, but mine feels much stronger than usual. This is pleasant enough, yet the second change is what truly makes me love chastity and denial: my deepening submission.
If I have a keyholder, obviously I pay close attention to her words. But even beyond that, I find myself seeking out ways to do nice things for my everyday female friends—from helping them with tasks they need done to crafting little gifts just because I know they’ll like them. They don’t know about my cage or hold any power over it; I’m not doing this so I can have a selfish release soon. Instead, I genuinely want to make them happy.
One keyholder from EmlaLock once asked me to come up with different examples of how my denial made the world better each day. To my surprise, many came to mind (even if most were small moments that only brightened one person’s day slightly). Some nights I felt a bit miserable trying to sleep because sexy thoughts wouldn’t leave my head and there was nothing for me to do about them. Still, I felt like I was genuinely making the world better, at least around my friends. That gave me a sense of true submissive pleasure that I haven’t found anywhere else.
Feel free to ask if you have questions! I hope to become active here—I love sharing my chastity experiences and reading others’ stories!