Glad to be back! My other username was @Lockedwithlove if anyone was curious. For a while I stopped coming here because of the unnecessary drama and I found I was getting more caught up with that versus communicating with others and learning how I could better serve my mistress. I would turn back up now and then to lurk for a while but wasn’t participating. I started this new account because I have no access to my old account due to email/password issues. I’m looking forward to being part of the community and helping those who are just starting out or wanting to learn more in chastity, though of course I’m always learning too and that’s why I enjoy coming here.
So not much had really changed for me other than Mistress M bringing her level of bossiness back to full circle. My hopes when we first started were to bring my wife into my fetishes and desires (the ones she wasn’t already a part of). Things have been steamy and kinky over the last 3 years but any sort of real kink has really been lacking in this last year. It’s not my fault and it’s not really her fault. What it is, is the reorganization of priorities in our lives. Before September, Mistress had been taking classes in a pre-master program to apply for the master medical school. Well she applied and was accepted; she was 1 out of 18 selected from 600 applicants, so needless to say I’m incredibly proud of her. We’re now 3 weeks into the new semester and it’s quite clear that my lockups are going to be longer. Not for actual chastity purposes but because there is no time. Our anniversary was yesterday and my poor Mistress spent the entire time working on projects and homework. I still made that day as special as I could for her; I bought her some nice roses, wrote a really sweet note in her anniversary card, and cooked her favorite dish. She was grateful and that made me feel good.
I put our 3.5-year-old down to bed around 9ish and then took down Mistress’s and my bed. I was in there for about 30 minutes before she came in to join me. She let me finish my episode of The Grand Tour, and then I watched an episode of her favorite show while rubbing against her for a while. We both ended up just about asleep by the end of her show. We wanted to spend more time together but we were both so exhausted from parenting and homework that there was no way we were staying up. The truth is, my major goal is not to earn an orgasm; my goal is to make sure my mistress is happy and content. I’ve been locked for 9 days, and it had been at least 7 days before that since we had any real intimacy together. I admit I gave myself a ruined right before going into the cage but was still left plenty horny. So I’m a dripping mess of horniness that wants nothing more than to dote upon my mistress. This is the kind of behavior Mistress adores from me; our first two years consisted of me being her servant, and she loved it. Then the luster started to die off for me because I didn’t feel like there was an end game for us; our sex wasn’t getting any kinkier and I assumed her inner domme would come out and change our lives.
Well the truth is that her inner domme did come out. She is very much in charge but runs me exactly how she thinks I should behave. It’s way too natural for her to order me about. This isn’t just chores; it’s things you’d ask a butler to do, i.e., getting her a drink, preparing her meals then bringing them to her, etc. To keep this short, she has me get everything for her and gets nothing herself. It even goes as far that if the remote control is next to her TV, I’m required (most of the time) to get up and fetch it myself. This is just how life is for us now; it’s natural for me to do it all. It started at first as kind of a game for both of us gaining our bearings in learning our new roles. Never did I think being her servant would ever feel so natural. In the last year, many of her requests carried a little more begrudgingly but only because I felt like my chastity was inconsistent. I was cuming often and left unlocked; it felt more like she didn’t care as much so I slacked off quite a bit, doing things to try to prompt a response from her just to get a reaction. At that point, I wasn’t in the cage and was very reluctant to put it back on, waiting until she asked me too, even then somewhat begrudgingly.
I felt a little lost without her firmness with my chastity; granted, I did have to spend some time out of the cage because I have mild Peyronie’s (as of now) and wanted to be careful not to do damage. The thing about Peyronie’s is that it will either get worse or stay regardless of chastity. I’m hoping mine just stays as it is. I have scar tissue developing into hard lumps on the inside of the penis, but thank god they haven’t made my penis curve. I used to get pain during erections, but the pain has pretty much gone away. I’ve lost a bit of length because the scar tissue doesn’t allow me to get as hard as I used to. The good thing is everything still works and Mistress is just as satisfied with my penis as before; she says she doesn’t notice a difference visually or physically with my size. Anyway, she has returned to some firmness regarding me wearing the cage, and I’m also going to put it back on after any time she allows it off for play. We’ve discussed me getting pierced and using a much more secure cage, which will probably happen next year around my birthday, I hope. I’m actually pretty excited about it and have wanted this route for a long time as long as I’m allowed. Mistress has been hesitant but opened up considerably the longer we’ve been at this. She also realizes she’ll truly have full control without the possibility of me pulling out. It’s hard to do with my current cage anyway, but still possible especially in the shower or later in the day when things droop a bit.
So for now our play times are fewer and there has been less kink, but what I’m finding is that my desire to be chaste for my queen still grows. Although there hasn’t been much sex, my desire for Mistress and to obey her wishes grows the longer I stay chaste. I’m riding the euphoric high of desire because I haven’t had a real orgasm in more than two weeks; I’m more willing and obedient and want to stay that way. This will probably make life easier over the next 2 years while Mistress finishes her master’s degree. I hope after those 2 years, with her freedom from school, we can work on our FLR relationship and intimate time, maybe experimenting with new things in the bedroom, though of course it depends on her.
For now I’m just going to listen to Mistress and be a good boy, trying to make her life as easy as possible through these next 2 years. At this point in our lives, chastity is part of us, and I imagine this will probably be a lifelong journey for us. I look forward to the journey but also look forward to spending time with my mistress.