I have decided that my Complicated Start storyline (the referenced community page) needs to be retired. It documents the first seven months of my membership and is 23 pages long. The main reason for starting a new story line though is that I feel I have reached a natural point in how she is using chastity and denial to control and mould me into a better, more loving and caring husband. When I started writing my journal on November 16 2015 I was very new to the world of male chastity. I had only just got my Holy Trainer and was still unsure as to how it was going to fit. I had no idea of the ride that was going to be ahead of me. I had several episodes of doubt, fear, wonder, panic and what I came to describe as brain farts. I knew that I loved this new ‘game’ but did not know if my Wife would want to continue as my Keyholder or whether she would ever fully get what we were doing. She totally gets what we are doing. Several key things have happened over the past few weeks to absolutely convince me of that. I am still on a crazy roller coaster ride of emotions and still do not know what this will be like in the months and years ahead of us. I am however calmer and more willing to just let the ride take me where it wants to go. I am loving the ride, I don’t want to get off but where before I could not see what was going on around me now my vision is clear. I want to thank everyone who has interacted with me on my journal and the other posts in the Mansion. I can honestly say that the Mansion has played a large and important role in getting me through the past seven months. You have listened and sometimes commented. You have given me somewhere safe and warm to sit and relax. You have made me think, made me reflect and helped me understand. Some of you have made me incredibly horny and others made me laugh. I have got annoyed a few times and had to apologise a few times. I have always been honest though and will try to continue to be that way. I still do not think that I am some kind of Ultra Chastity Super Hero, holder of the key to all chastity knowledge (but not the key to my device!) I offer up my thoughts and experiences to other members without thinking that I am always right. I still have a lot to learn and experience. Let’s see what happens shall we? Mwa!!!
A quick introduction into why I wear a chastity device. In August 2015 I upset my Wife by carrying out a genital modification. I had asked for and received permission from her to do this but she was unaware of how much it would upset her. I do not in any way hold that reaction against her, what I did was pretty extreme. I still have a functioning penis but I am almost certain that my penis does not look like your penis or that of your partner! I needed something to rescue my marriage. For three days I was on my own in England, my Wife in Germany, utterly convinced she was going to demand a divorce knowing I had no right to refuse. The wonderful woman decided that she wasn't going to leave me but admitted that it was going to take her a long time to get used to what I had done. The very idea of touching my penis made her upset, so I needed something to help her. I had seen chastity devices on Tumblr and had been intrigued by them. I had a bit of an epiphany when I realised I could wear one and give my Wife the key. This would achieve two key things. One would be to lock my penis away so I could not be tempted to continue the modification process, which I very much was wanting to do. The second would be to hide what I had already done, obscure it so she did not have to look at it every time I was naked. I asked my Wife whether she thought we could try this and she said yes. I put on my first device in October but it took three more and until the middle of November before I put on my Holy Trainer and knew that this was something I both wanted and that could actually happen. If the HTv2 had not fit my Wife would have pulled the plug on my attempts and that would have meant we would have missed out on so much. I had no idea what else would develop. I did not know what I would feel like when my Wife told me no, I was not allowed to cum. I did not know how incredibly horny I would feel during the weeks of denial she put me through. I had no idea how much this would effect both of us. My Wife is my Keyholder and Mistress. She is still learning and developing but has already demonstrated that she is a loving and caring Mistress but one who demands obedience. She is strict but fun. Her rules are simple to follow and the most important one is that this has to be fun if I want her to continue. I am very pleased to report that she is having a great time and a lot of fun.
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