It’s been seventeen years since we started our relationship, twelve of them married. Surprisingly, I feel as though I haven’t truly loved or valued my wife until this very moment. Love isn’t quite the right word; it’s a profound sense of devotion and duty that makes me feel like I OWE my Queen something deep down. Since diving into BDSM, Female Superiority, Tao Sex, and similar subjects, I’ve become someone new, viewing marriage, women, and sex through an entirely different lens.
It’s hard to believe these feelings come from a former womanizer, but they ran so deep that I had to reflect inwardly for some understanding and justification. Honestly, reflecting on my life alongside reading about this lifestyle blew me away. For a few days, I was in a daze trying to figure it all out. But how could I deny the reality? My wife has ALREADY been running our household even though I bring home the paycheck. The kids know it too; Mommy is the boss of our family and home. It just took me realizing and accepting this truth so I could move forward. And I did.
Once I accepted that fact, my view of her shifted. I’ve always been attracted to her, even during her pregnancies. She’s a TALL GORGEOUS BLONDE BOMBSHELL who is also hilarious. She’s the kind of woman everyone wants to be around and admire; she’s beloved by all. Sexually, she’s an orgasmic powerhouse—she actually ejaculates (more like a GUSH!) when she comes off. As a sexual DYNAMO, she willingly does whatever it takes to please me. I honestly feel she has given everything she could…and what have I done? I realized I can and should do better for her, no matter how good her life already is.
So…I’ve taken on ALL the daily chores and evening childcare duties. I don’t want her to lift a finger unless she wants to. She’s my queen, and it’s my duty to ensure her comfort and pleasure.
This new sense of devotion has led me to offer my wife complete control over our lives. I now realize that her kind, gentle, loving nature should never be doubted and that her maternal instincts are always correct. She deserves every liberty without any questioning from me.
Because of my lust (I enjoy porn) and bad habits (masturbating daily), I did what I thought was RIGHT. I presented my wife with the ULTIMATE CONTROL via chastity. I explained my reasoning, but she hasn’t quite enforced it yet. I think it’s crucial that SHE believes in her heart that chastity is best for me and that she initiates the process. If it comes from her heart, it becomes the law of our home; if it’s the law, it won’t just fade away. It will be a real, permanent part of our lives. She did mention that if we do this (chastity), it is for life…and she gave me that look which tells me she f’n means it. It’s probably only a matter of time now…stay tuned.