Finally, I have an update to share. Our ‘session’ last Saturday night made me think a bit about how to handle things going forward, and I’d also like to hear what the members of CM think.
My girlfriend isn’t very dominant or deeply into chastity herself, but she knows it matters to me and sometimes indulges my fetish. My birthday was at the end of August, so last weekend was the planned date for my ‘gift’. I had been looking forward to it for weeks and felt quite excited—though a bit nervous too, since previous sessions hadn’t always gone exactly as expected.
After her son left for work around 9pm on Saturday night, I headed upstairs to get ready. First, I took a Viagra. Then, while locking myself into my CB6000, I placed our Ann Summers vibrating cock ring over the shaft, securing the ‘bulb’ part underneath with an elastic band. Next came a medium-sized butt plug.
I strapped on our 8” strap-on device, tightening all the straps and adjusting everything so it pushed my chastised cock upward between my legs. This position allowed the vibrating bulb of the ring and the butt plug to gently press against either side of my prostate.
So far, so good. I attached velcro cuffs to my wrists and ankles, adding lengths of nylon cord for tying myself to the bedposts.
I pulled on jogging bottoms over this setup, with the large cock hanging loosely down one leg, a t-shirt, and slippers. Then I went downstairs for my final indulgence: a glass of wine and a hearty pipeful of strong weed. I’ve always used grass as an aphrodisiac; combined with the sensations, it can be mind-blowing. Mixed with the Viagra and the vibrations from the cock ring, things were definitely starting to stir.
My girlfriend came upstairs shortly after and tied me spreadeagled to our bed. She inserted a ball gag and fastened it securely, turned up the vibration control on the cock ring to maximum, and started the DVD I’d loaded with my favorite scenes from Maitresse Madeline.
She then left for her own preparations.
By this time, I was getting quite hot and bothered—stoned, locked up, plugged, gagged, and immobilized. With the Viagra, vibrating ring, and divine MM all working their magic, the excitement and anticipation were almost unbearable. This was exactly what I had wanted and dreamed of for months.
When she returned about 40 minutes later, she looked stunning in lacy black underwear, hold-up stockings, and high heels. My cock strained against the CB6000 as soon as I saw her. However, things eventually started to go a bit off track for several reasons. She had mentioned before that she didn’t feel comfortable following a strict ‘script’, so I told her it was fine. In fact, one reason I introduced the ball gag was because I wanted to avoid being ‘topping from the bottom’.
She admitted later that she still felt somewhat self-conscious. Although I knew she couldn’t just transform into my fantasy Goddess overnight, there was a part of me hoping things would somehow ‘click into place’.
After commenting on how nice it was to have a decent-sized cock for once, she lowered herself onto the strap-on device. For about ten minutes or so, I felt like I was in heaven.
Unfortunately, this didn’t last long; she got off and went downstairs for a cigarette.
When she came back almost two hours later, I was struggling with cramp in my left arm, and the ball gag was digging into the sides of my mouth because it had been fastened too tightly (I’d only bought it a few days prior and hadn’t tested it thoroughly).
I realize how this sounds—like I’m being bratty over small details. There are many subs here who can endure far more discomfort.
At the time, however, it felt like the erotic bubble had burst slightly, plus my girlfriend still wasn’t fully ‘feeling it’.
I was disappointed but relieved when she finally released me. We went downstairs together, and by then, the tension had lifted. She no longer felt pressured to perform, and I was starting to regain circulation in my limbs.
I gladly took another glass of wine and refilled my pipe. The smoke hit the spot perfectly and reminded me that I was still locked up and plugged, with the cock ring continuing its vibrations.
This change of scene turned out to be an unexpected development. We returned to our ‘normal’ selves—laughing and chatting—but always with a current of sexual tension underneath. After all, she was still in her lacy underwear, moving suggestively and watching my reactions with amusement. It felt much more natural.
Soon, we cranked up Spotify on the laptop connected to the stereo speakers. She began dancing to 70s funk and disco classics for me while I shifted uncomfortably on the couch.
My cock swelled to its full capacity within the tube, and my prostate received plenty of stimulation. Soon, I forgot my disappointment at being untied, especially when she reminded me there would be no release that night (I hadn’t cum in two weeks by then, and my balls felt like tennis balls).
My fantasy mistress was emerging again and seemed to be enjoying herself. She started commenting on how much she looked forward to feeling the big cock—and before long, she did. From behind, for a good half hour or so, she reached back to grab my balls while my poor little winky strained against the tube.
Eventually, we got into bed and kissed passionately as she used her Rampant Rabbit vibe on herself.
I’ve never experienced such delicious frustration as I did when she came noisily; I bucked my hips uselessly and shifted the plug inside me, desperate to cum. It really felt like I could push myself over the edge, but it wasn’t meant to be. After removing the strap-on device and plug and cleaning up, I had to immediately massage her buttocks until she fell into a contented sleep. It took me quite a while to do the same.
Sorry for the lengthy post! I just felt the need to capture this while it was still fresh in my mind. But more importantly, I wanted to ask if anyone else has experienced similar feelings.
Does the ‘ritual’ of everything sometimes feel forced? Is it better to feel more relaxed and natural? I suppose when subs are locked full-time, everyday life just continues and ‘scenarios’ happen more spontaneously.
Thanks for reading this far. I’d be really interested to hear the views and experiences of other CM members.
Respectfully, slave d.