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Foreword​ My dearest Goddess, Lady Jessi came on Friday (9/14) to start our ‘new life’ together in earnest. It felt extra special since Saturday marked an anniversary for us. d’awww We met already knowing we both enjoyed BDSM and have gradually figured out how deep it goes. I opened up about my deepest desires and emotions, and she received me with love and zero Ø judgment. I think we’ve explored every well-known kink and are either experimenting or just curious about the rest, keeping a few hard limits in mind. I’m still not entirely clear on how fast everything moved toward her Friday visit. We’d been chatting about different subjects, and it felt like we were circling around raising things to a higher level. [Brief backstory- I’ve always loved women more than just finding them attractive; Femininity as a whole and all its aspects—shopping, makeup, hair, handbags, dresses, heels, and the exclusive activities they enjoy together. You could say there’s been some jealousy because I couldn’t join in those things fully. I usually have had more female friends than male ones, partly since most men seem cocky, arrogant, and immature around women. I’ve always respected, admired, and adored the feminine ideal and just love being near women generally. Perhaps you’d say my mindset makes me feel like one of the girls.] And I’ve long been interested in feminization, sissification, more recently chastity and female-led dynamics. Lady Jessi knows this, and we’ve talked about it casually. Last week, though, it turned into a more serious discussion leaning toward a lifestyle centered on these themes. Friday marked the start… Chapter 1: Key Holder & The Chaste​ I was told to wear specific feminine clothes when Lady Jessi arrived, including my lovely new short blonde bob from Gothic Lolita.:) She gave me a list of things to buy beforehand and said I’d be cooking dinner for her. Naturally, the other major condition… I was to stay locked in chastity and hand over my key right away. Like any good submissive should, I waited ready when she walked in. We shared a passionate hug and long, slow kisses. With the key in my hand, I reached out and put it into hers, wrapping her fingers around it while whispering, “This is yours now.” I truly meant it. This isn’t just play for me. While there’s mostly constant foreplay involved:p ..I’ve wanted this for ages and as noted above you can likely guess that treating women well has never been a problem for me. I want to submit completely in every way. My key, now Her key, symbolizes her power over me and her love, along with whatever path she chooses to guide me down. I was told to have wine ready for her upon arrival. She seemed impressed by how attentive I was and very pleased. As she settled in, she complimented my look. Then she quickly headed to the bedroom where I helped dress her for the evening. I assisted her into a gorgeous, tightly laced corset ( Looking stunning, feminine, and incredibly dominant, she sent me off to the kitchen to start cooking dinner. The menu included herb chicken served over mixed greens with almonds and mandarin oranges. We chatted away like two best friends before sitting down for a great meal. After eating, I cleaned up and was quickly told to change and wait in the bedroom. I got all dressed up, swapped out my work clothes, and eagerly waited for her return. The next four hours involved lots of kinky activities. Lady Jessi doesn’t want me to reveal every fun detail… Still, both Friday & Saturday had me en femme, bound, anally penetrated, and objectified for her enjoyment. My tongue was put through its paces. She rode me hard for about two hours or more each night with strict orders that I stay denied until she decided otherwise. After all the teasing and denial throughout the weekend, she kindly let me have one orgasm.

We enjoyed a lovely spontaneous weekend together last time around. Once again, after being thoroughly satisfied herself, she graciously allowed my release then too. It’s now been a week and a day—longest I’ve gone without releasing in 10-15+ years. I trust what she promised & her commitment to me- “I’ll always take care of you.” <3 Her