Female led relationships discussion

I’m not entirely sure how to begin this or phrase it properly, but here goes. Just before last year’s Thanksgiving, I experienced what I believe was one of the most intense periods of my life. I had a powerful sense of self and felt happy every day engaging in activities that bring joy. Working hard actually turned me on significantly. Taking care of you was my top priority, and it brought immense satisfaction. I didn’t crave sexual release; I just needed occasional reminders from you that I am locked up for your enjoyment and pleasure, along with being teased or played with periodically. During this time, you mentioned that? felt happier in our relationship than ever before. Thus, living within a female-dominated dynamic is having a deep impact on both of us. I truly adore submitting to you, but my submission requires authenticity from your dominance. I dislike the ability to bring myself to orgasm because it affects my mental state when I satisfy myself independently. I yearn for chastity and desire complete submissiveness towards you. If doing everything together is too much strain on us, I will understand, but I prefer being fully committed rather than half-heartedly involved. I don’t know why these strong feelings of submission burn within me so intensely, but what I do know is that it felt like I found my true self when you gave me a taste of serving a dominant wife. I hope you grasp both the meaning and emotion behind my words; if not, can we discuss them? My love for you exceeds description, though expressing it becomes difficult when I am not in a submissive mindset. I would love for us to proactively grow together in this direction. Love you. I wanted to share this message with everyone here; let’s see how things develop.