Something happened yesterday. My wife and I have experimented with chastity a few times, but I always knew exactly when the lock would come off. Yesterday she really played with me. We began with a humbler; I was being teased and got quite aroused. She then used a ball crusher on me, making me plead for more crushing pressure. When she thought I couldn’t handle any more, she switched to a massager combined with a penis masturbation attachment. We set two alarms beforehand: one at 35 minutes and another at 40. I was permitted to cum after the first alarm but not after the second.
She made me beg hard not to cum when the first alarm went off, and then pleaded again to be put back into the cage after the second. Afterward, I licked her and sucked on her nipples while she had three orgasms. I promised not to ask for release, and no specific timeframe was set. I feel much better about this uncertainty regarding when or if I will be let out or allowed to cum. Previously, I always had a target duration of 3 days one week, then 5 the next.
Is it normal to feel so good with that lack of certainty? Right now, I have no anxiety, just love and devotion. Perhaps because I know I managed a full week before. It feels like ‘it is whatever length it is,’ so don’t overthink it. Just be happy. The feeling is hard to describe—perhaps surrender—but it feels great.