I want to give a more direct explanation for our presence here. It’s about learning, improving ourselves, seeking guidance and receiving encouragement. I usually follow a different chain of events than @MWilspoonsBunny, minus the sparkles and soft lighting. **
MWilspoonsBunny said: I just thought I’d write an introduction for me and my goddess on the community! I am a 30 year old guy from nsw in Australia and I serve @GoddessMWilspoon as best I can (still got a lot of work to do.)… We’ve been together for 7 or so months and for the last 3 or so we’ve been slowly working towards a femdom lead relationship. Currently it’s still very early days and as this lifestyle is so hectic, it’s a bit of two steps forward, one step back kind of deal. I’m hoping to eventually be a perfect slave and partner to her and have us both walking forward together without the interruptions and set backs. I dabble in computer games, guitar, singing and I keep poultry! As for the both of us we dabble in chastity (but hoping to find a way to keep it going for longer so I can better serve her, again training) goddess worship (still need to more to meet her standards) boot worship, a lot of bondage and a whole heap of other things that make our life together a bit of a crazy and intense dream sometimes. She also likes to discipline me a couple times a week. She is an incredibly beautiful woman inside and out, with an outrageous streak that seriously keeps me on my toes. She’s also an absolute shoe fanatic! Lately we’ve been working towards taking me further into submission and this website is a safe place for us to talk and work through things as we both adapt to a femdom lead relationship So hello! Click to expand… ** Hi everyone. Goddess here. Bunny and I have shared a monogamous bond since early February, residing in separate houses just minutes apart in the same town. We both bring sexual and BDSM experience from our time online and offline. My background is heavily rooted in real life with some online fantasy elements woven in. His approach leans more toward online fantasy style, though he has his own IRL experiences too. This difference has sparked plenty of conflict, disagreement, and struggle as we try to define our roles within a standard partnership while navigating the dynamics of an FDLR.
Through mutual understanding of our shared interest in BDSM, it was decided that he needed proper domination by a femdom at least once a month. I embraced this responsibility early on, taking up the role of femdom even though he still made moves as a power bottom—which, no, I wasn’t okay with initially.
Given our histories, I need regular sex, preferably daily; arguably, I’m addicted to it. My slave needs regular masturbation, if not every day, and is arguably addicted to porn. This discrepancy lies at the heart of our relationship issues.
I have gone through four vibrating dildos during our time together because he wasn’t meeting my physical needs and habits, while he has frequently strayed online multiple times because I wasn’t satisfying his mental fantasy cravings. We are working through significant trust issues.
We’ve made chastity a regular part of our lives to ensure he actually sticks to his word. However, he treated it as just another kink to fantasize about, and when real life didn’t match up with that fantasy, the submissive vibe would break down and he’d take it off. Or we’d get into an unrelated argument while he was locked in, prompting him to remove it again. We don’t limit our play to the bedroom; this is a full lifestyle, yet some obedience and respect only apply when things are good between us at home. I believe these habits stem from his past sexual experiences. Previously, he could have an online femdom claim ownership of his cock without any real-life accountability for truly being submissive on someone else’s terms.
So, not only do we deal with fantastical ideals surrounding FDLR dynamics, women, sex, and domination—along with fetishes like shoes, latex, heels, pegging, etc.—but because these are often fantasy-based, they fall short in real life unless he is the recipient of them.
He is making an effort to change these habits, participating in locktober as best he can, providing as much support as I feel vulnerable or strong enough to give him. I know my darling is struggling internally right now, and this situation isn’t easy on him either. Part of his sparkly, cushy light side involves finding that a fantastical idea of reality can sometimes be more pleasant than facing life itself, and I see the benefit in wanting to escape into that world.
Personally, I am currently wrestling with my self-esteem as a woman, a goddess, a good fuck, and just as a person. It is affecting my daily life and severely impacting my motivation to work on my home, pursue my law studies, and continue training him. I recently posted a thread Revisiting orgasm denial & cuckolding to help vent where my mind was going.
This may have come across as harsh in response/intro to the Mansion, but one thing true about me is that I am blunt and straightforward with my thoughts. Naturally, I fell into the FDLR role as a Goddess. I prefer biological strong men; I do not find trans men/women, sissies, or permanently denied cocks attractive (no disrespect intended). In our FDLR dynamic, I take on the power so he doesn’t always have to be that big strong man beside me. Even though he is typically a muscly, broad-shouldered sexy guy outside, little old me who fits under his shoulders can still dominate him. This gives me both a boost in power and stress relief, while providing him with power direction and stress release.
Yet I find he still uses some reserved power to undermine me when he wants what he cannot have—whether that is a break from chastity, masturbation, or sex on his terms. This increases the stress for us both, even if it manifests differently. I don’t believe he intends this behavior consciously, but I do think his subconscious does it intentionally because it has become a long-term habitual lifestyle, which I am now trying to adapt to my requirements.
I love this man and intend to stay with him. However, since BDSM has been part of our relationship from the first month alongside power struggles, it is naturally becoming exhausting. He is cute, funny, creative, sporty, empathetic, and clever. A good man.
Please feel free to comment publicly, follow us both, and start private conversations if you believe you can assist in furthering the direction I am leading us toward—to make us the best people, partners, lovers, and friends we can be for each other. Please don’t try to tempt or lead either of us astray; as seen above, we clearly do not need more stress.
P.S., I’m much nicer in person…except when I have a paddle or whip in hand. Then I am as cruel and bitter as I sound here…all because of my love for him though;) Xoxo Goddess MWilspoon