Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

As a newly locked husband, I’m thrilled and content, yet small pockets of regret and anxiety surface—especially when my Goddess Wife acts or speaks in ways that deeply emasculate and shame me. Inside, I push back mentally, feeling humiliated with a ripple of worry about what I’ve accepted. Then comes the realization: this is genuine Domination and Submission, which feels psychologically rewarding and physically stimulating for me. So these uncomfortable moments—the humiliation, shame, and emasculation (which I’ve longed for)—are crucial to our dynamic. I need those brief instances where I truly don’t enjoy it in order to claim that space and fulfillment I’ve been seeking. For any Dominants reading: how do you view this from your perspective? Do you notice your sub going through the same internal process? Do you take pleasure in pushing them through something they aren’t enjoying at that moment, knowing their struggle? Or do you assume they are always happy? Could some of you even prefer a sub who exists in a state of constant non-enjoyment, humiliation, and suffering? Without these raw moments, my Wife and I might just be playing a kinky game. That’s wonderful too, no doubt about it—but it is those times of burning shame, fear, and pain that make me want to beg Her to stop—times that have always been what I needed and desired.