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Hi everyone, I haven’t posted in quite some time. I actually didn’t even realize chastity was a thing until I had been with my partner for six months. He told me he liked this concept called chastity and explained it to me. I asked plenty of questions and we discussed it openly. By the end of our talk, the idea turned me on and I agreed to give it a try. This happened about 12 months ago; now we’ve been together for 18 months. For the initial period, he managed the sessions via an app and handled most details. I was fine with that since I wasn’t very knowledgeable about being a mistress. I would ask him for advice and prompts as he had experience, then do my best to fulfill my role. Long story short, we sort of lost our routine for a bit and hadn’t really engaged in chastity for maybe 6-8 weeks until about two weeks ago. Previously, I admit I was somewhat of a soft mistress. I struggled with getting into the kink and denying/teasing/punishing him (or trying to) while feeling like a harsh girlfriend when spanking or denying him. Sometimes I stood firm in my denial; other times guilt made me give in to his begging. I felt strong at times, weak at others. I wrestled with the guilt of causing discomfort to someone you’re meant to care for. Throughout our journey, I joined this community and gained a wealth of new knowledge. I learned fun ways to tease, new methods of punishment, and much more info. I realized we can maintain our same daily relationship, caring deeply for him in everyday life while engaging with chastity intimately. I learned there are boundaries, and those boundaries differ between those living vanilla lives and those who don’t. When our latest session started, something shifted. The guilt of causing discomfort disappeared. I realized he actually wanted this in his life, and that the discomfort was a turn-on for him. I also saw it makes him more affectionate, brings us closer together, and strengthens our bond. We feel more connected with chastity. Just under two weeks ago, I told him to put on his cage; I missed chastity and wanted to pursue it seriously this time. It felt different. I was ready. Truly ready. I had taken the time to miss it, crave it, and realize how beneficial it is for us. It wasn’t mean. He initially thought it was just a game, this new session. He has now thoroughly realized he was wrong. My role as mistress has undergone a complete 360° change from before. He sees I’m serious about this, and that he can no longer get away with begging his way out of ‘copping out’ when he gets too horny and wants an orgasm. He is constantly incredibly horny, very affectionate, and craves me. The denial keeps him heightened, and I know he loves it even if he whines about missing his orgasm. He is completely in awe of the mistress I’ve become. I wanted to write this post to share our experience and my journey into becoming a strict mistress. I want to show the more human side—the struggles—while sharing the fun parts, the good stuff. Welcome to our journey, queenofhearts xo