I am absolutely smitten with my partner. He is my boyfriend, my lover, my pet, and my submissive. I find all these labels a bit awkward for myself right now. My own name feels more natural. This needs some further reflection and chat.
I have such a deep desire for him—his handsome face, his body, his scent. For days after he leaves me, I catch myself sniffing his clothes and sheets like a total pervert to find that delicious smell. I adore how willing he is to do whatever I ask. But what exactly should I be asking? I tread carefully because he is young. I am cautious because we are in love. And I feel responsible for him. I have already told him not to orgasm until our next trip away together. This marks the first time either of us has tried using chastity as a way to heighten sexual tension. We are operating on an honor system, and I trust him completely; he is doing very well.
I have read the arguments for getting a cage, and I agree that it places me in control rather than just relying on his self-restraint. So we will definitely plan one down the road, but right now feels too early. We can keep discussing it. He is currently on day 14 and feeling the pressure. I tease him gently, asking him to touch himself at work or in the car before heading out into public. We have been intimate as well, though I am not certain he will make it next time. It might be too much after such a long period of abstinence. If so, could I punish him? I’ll brainstorm some ideas beforehand.
His deadline is April 5th. Perhaps I should penalize him while we are away for every slip-up, and then work on undermining his success? That sounds like fun.