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Does anyone else experience this? You’ve been locked up for a stretch, denying yourself, and then finally get that release. Suddenly you wonder in real time: what am I doing here? It feels like the kink isn’t quite you—being restrained, dressed up, obsessing over toys and scenarios seems almost possessed-like for a while. Yet somehow, you crawl back to it anyway. That sense of strangeness happens to me often.