People kept posting that they aren’t great lovers for their partners. Small penis and premature ejaculation are the two issues I read about most often. Living in chastity naturally has made me a premature ejaculator as well. I always knew my size was average to slightly below, so those factors combined really hurt my sexual confidence when it became clear I have almost no ability to hold back an orgasm. My mistress usually gets very satisfying orgasms through various methods she loves, and if I’m lucky, she lets me inside her sacred place. The catch is that once I get the chance, I finish in literally five seconds.
It made me feel ashamed and embarrassed, wondering how unsatisfactory my performance must have been for her. I assumed she kept us in Chastity because the other benefits were so valuable to her that our sex life quality didn’t matter much—maybe it never did throughout our whole relationship. Recently, I brought up the topic with her, asking if I satisfied her enough. She said directly that she loves my premature ejaculation; it makes her feel good about herself. She explained it gives her a sense of power and attractiveness because I can’t hold back and cum almost instantly at the slightest touch. Her eyes had this look in them like it was her favorite thing, lol.
I thought about it for a moment and realized it totally makes sense. She enjoys penetrative sex, but it isn’t everything to her. Most of the time she prefers using her wand. If she’s in the mood for a deep f#%k, I put on the strap-on with our BBC dildo, though even then she doesn’t want that all the time.
I realized then that she has me exactly how she wants me. My ego is down and I feel humbled because she can basically force an Orgasm out of me whenever she decides; I truly have no control. Men often pride ourselves on lasting power, but she’s taken that from me. I also think she enjoys it a bit maliciously when I look ashamed for finishing so quickly. That little self-doubt keeps me working harder to please her in other ways, and perhaps she knows this is happening. Overall, my mistress finds my premature ejaculation arousing and enjoyable. It’s a major psychological pleasure for her being in control, which was hard for me to grasp at first.