By Monday, I’ll have been wearing the cage for four weeks (four days to go). It’s been an experience so far, though not particularly pleasurable. At the end of week two, I requested the key to wash and check that my cleaning under the foreskin was going well—it is/was. By week three, I managed to pleasure my wife in bed once more. Aside from that, there has been no other sexual contact. People reading this will likely assume I’m not ‘putting in the effort’ or ‘setting the mood,’ but we both endure long and hard days. My coping mechanism is wanting to ‘make love’ and feel sexually aroused; my wife feels the opposite.
Viewing it selfishly, my wife has taken full advantage of me while completely ignoring my complaints by saying it’s “part of the game.” We have one rule: she makes them. I’m reaching a point where I might start seeking ‘negative attention’ just to get some! I’m not bursting with sexual frustration, but I am filled with a longing for any sort of sexual contact and/or arousal. Honestly, I’d rather go back to watching porn and handling things myself. It may be lonely and lack meaningful depth (or even significant arousal), but it scratches an itch and keeps my resentment levels in check.
As with everything, expectations exist on both sides, and here they aren’t aligned. We clearly have a communication problem! I need to spend some time thinking about how to address the underlying issues that need fixing…