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After various trial periods of different lengths of time etc for the last 3 months (and admittedly me trying to control from bottom occasionally) we have decided that as from today I will be permanently locked other than when my partner desires me. Anyone who has read my other threads will know that it was her idea initially, however she is inexperienced. I was apprehensive, even frustrated sometimes. Despite this I enjoyed having to save myself for her and the release were amazing. She has now read the Lucy Fairweather book, took some advice from it, admitting she had no idea of the sex drive/arousal it can create as well as many other things. She admitted she had confidence issues but believes in time she will become more and more. I have submitted and will try to control my frustration and not attempt to control her from the bottom. Another interesting development is that she recently told her best friend about this lifestyle and even had her hold up the key in a pic. That would kind of say her confidence is growing and as much as I now have to look this friend in the eye it kind of turns me on that she knows. I will update accordingly and let people know how it goes.