It’s been more than two months since I last stayed locked (mostly, aside from self-release). My wife and I both traveled around, which made us lose the habit of constantly checking in on each other. I told her that I “cheated” a couple of times recently by masturbating. I was really hoping she’d be angrier than she actually was. I fully expected to have my key taken for a week, but she didn’t make a big deal out of it. So…I’m disappointed. Her main point was just that she likes me being very attentive to her. She teased that I wasn’t behaving well enough, though I found her concern somewhat unconvincing.
Today, I’m starting up another chat with her about how we need to return to our normal routine: I stay 100% on good behavior, and she holds the power over when I receive my “rewards.” That whole dynamic makes me feel super submissive toward her, and I really crave giving her control. Argh! It is REALLY difficult to find a steady way to handle the sexual part of our relationship so that we are both happy.
Oh well…